the struggle. explained. sort of.

it has been an absolutely horrendous effort to get my foot in the door for this blog.  when i have the opportunity to write about anything, and so i try and go with what i know.  but what i have found out over the past couple months, is that i really don’t know much.  my life has been turned completely upside down and trying to find the ground i need.  which is why it is so hard for me to write these days–the whole idea of reflection makes me cringe with anxiety.  but the truth is is that it consumes me, and i cannot concentrate on anything else anymore.  buttttt, i swear i will be better about writing on this blog.